Okay, so I'm going to try and get back into this blogging thing. I warned you in entry two that I have a tendency to give up. But to be more accurate, I have the tendency to get sidetracked. That happens when you are a living, breathing emotional roller coaster. Now, I'm not talking about these "emotional roller coasters" people claim to be riding. I'm talking about being the roller coaster itself. And in case you don't see the difference, it means I don't have the luxury of leaving this crazy ride. But roller coasters do get turned off at night right? Well, for some lucky BPDers, this is true. I, unfortunately, am not so lucky. My sleep is always fraught with restlessness and violence. Not only have I ground my teeth since they came in but I will pull my hair out, scratch my head until I dig it open, scream, shake, thrash... Now, I've never seen the movie, The Exorcist, but it seems to me the kind of thing a possessed person might do. Or at the very least, scare the pee out of a unbeknownst roommate. No rest for the wicked right?
Now take a second and think about what might happen to a roller coaster that never gets a break. Scary, no? What about the maintenance?! I don't know about you but that upside down spinning loop is looking mighty unsteady to me! I wonder if that is where the term, "go flying off the handles" came from? Well, in the case of the roller coaster, rails. Oil and duck tape (pills and education), can only patch so much of the damage. Therefore, that leaves me only one answer. A firm, strong foundation. You see, a strong foundation can keep you running smooth through life's ups and downs, twists and turns, and even loopty loops. My family started the building blocks of my foundation at a very young age. Teaching me right from wrong. At eight years old God spoke to me and asked me to draw nearer to him. From there I began building my foundation on Him with Him. The Bible speaks to His foundation in many verses. Below are some of these.
Isaiah 28:16 Therefore thus saith the Lord GOD, Behold, I lay in Zion for a foundation a stone, a tried stone, a precious corner stone, a sure foundation: he that believeth shall not make haste.
1 Corinthians 3:11 For other foundation can no man lay than that is laid, which is Jesus Christ.
2 Timothy 2:19 Nevertheless the foundation of God standeth sure, having this seal, The Lord knoweth them that are his. And, Let every one that nameth the name of Christ depart from iniquity.
Proverbs 10:25 As the whirlwind passeth, so is the wicked no more: but the righteous is an everlasting foundation.
1 Corinthians 10-13 (NIV) By the grace God has given me, I laid a foundation as an expert builder, and someone else is building on it. But each one should be careful how he builds. For no one can lay any foundation other than the one already laid, which is Jesus Christ. If any man builds on this foundation using gold, silver, costly stones, wood, hay or straw, his work will be shown for what it is, because the Day will bring it to light. It will be revealed with fire, and the fire will test the quality of each man’s work.
Truthfully, I know few verses from the Bible by heart. None of these are in that small number. I looked them up because I could never convey this foundation of which I am speaking of, better than the Bible itself. I am also not a person that quotes Bible verses. But sometimes the message is too important to leave to the ramblings of someone like me. I'm an emotional roller coaster and I have my weaknesses but none of those are in my foundation. Do I sometimes run off the rails? Can I be a bumpy ride? Do friends affectionately call me "The Whiplash" behind my back? Perhaps. But my foundation will never falter.
